it is so hard to change people’s thinking.


keep hearing the same convo for 2 weeks and i am almost on the verge of confronting the person. maybe it is because the person is talking about something close to my heart and that is community service.

i mean is it that hard to send an email over to the HR dept? if you so desperately want your hours only ( i mean you only seem to care about hours) then why didn’t you make an effort to remember when you came. Challenge is similar to iConserve where:

1) there is fundraising every weekend and it is likely to be at  a different location each time

2) there isn’t a lot of beneficiary visit and it is done fortnightly (if i didn’t remember wrongly). so it will be at a certain day of the month, like the 1st B.V is on 7th July, then the next is 21st July… so it likely to be either the first part of the month or the later part of the month.

Even if you have the right mind-set (i.e. doing community service because you want to do a good deed for the society) and you just dun want to be discounted of your hours, i dun see a point for you to keep harping about it each week. honestly it just boils down to you and typing a few words into the freaking (omg i shouldn’t be saying it out loud but i can help it >.< ) email and hit the send button !


this is how i feel right now!





Passing Time.


Reading the other girls’ blogs have made me missed them so much. i really haven found anytime to meet up with them. And when we finally found the time, my Exco had to have meeting on that day. d*****. Hope we can meet up during the break week ((:


Packed Maxed

Omg ! i thought i planned nicely but guess not. thought i have arranged for the presentation on different weeks would be easier on the workload. but i failed to take into considerate the amount of workload per presentation. kept thinking to myself that i should complete as many project as possible (those that i know the full requirements). so that i have time to focus on individual projects and my  Gen&Fam and Strat presentations.


i really need to prioritise my time and datelines properly. i keep delaying my work. damn. really need to drink coffee to keep myself awake now.

PPK4–to end of my posts about my OCSP trip

realised that i didn’t complete my posts about PKK after “PKK3: The Temporary Getaway”. by right the follow up were “ PKK4: back to serving the village” & “PKK5: the Reward and Relaxation time”. Shall do a mini wrap up for both and the OCSP as a whole.

We moved on to reconstructing the walls of the house and teaching the children English and Hygiene. For the first two days, we had the guys’ help in taking care of the kids with us, which helped to lighten out load.. like tremendously !! haha. i also had a small girl who likes to stick around with me when it was play time. The girls like to braid our hairs or simply tie up our hair. When the guys started working on the houses first, the six girls nearly died. After the whole morning of teaching and playing with the kids, we went up to our sleeping quarters and just slept on the floor. We didn’t even realised whether anyone walked past us.

The following day we went along with the guys to help them complete the restoring of the walls, as we didn’t want the family to live in a wall-less house because of our ineffectiveness. the method to build the wall is seriously tedious.

Step 1: lay the bamboo poles according to the various measurements.

Step 2: hammer nails into each intersection and must hammer through completely

Step 3: lay the banana leaves on to the bamboo structure with consistency.

Step4: hammer another set of bamboo poles onto of the banana leaves and you are almost done.

Step 5: tie the wall to the concrete structure of the house.

On the last day of our stay there, we helped to cook a meal for the entire village. I followed the market team to cross the river and buy the goods. (20KG OF PORK !!! OMG) chopping the meat was hard too! since i don’t know how to cook, i just help to give out milk to the kids instead. When the food was all cooked, we got all the kids to sit down while my team served all of them and fan the smoke away.  [side note: the smoke is freaking poisonous. burn from plastic >.<] The most chaos thing was the distribution of clothes. typical scene where they rushed for the clothes. something we can’t really do about.




for R&R in Phnom Penh, we went Cambodia Brewery, Free bird bar, Russian Market and more. Then we took a bus to Siem Reap, where i had a hard time sleeping coz of a baby. Of coz, going to Siem Reap the best thing is Ang Kor Wat ((: This time i get to see the sunrise ((: super nice !!!




My third OCSP and i still find it enriching. Because of the new environment and a different team that i am with. I want to go on more OCSP, but i think there might not be a lot of changes for mi to join many in SMU. Might look into joining some after Uni or just form a team on my own and do a simple OCSP trip ((: for now… studies first !! haha ((:

reflecting !




“ … VERY revengeful…” “..has an “everything’s peachy” attitude” = angsty person!! haha. seems to be a very good example of who i am right now.


the tiny bits of convo that i have with mi sis brings laughter to my currently not so good mood ((:





arg! my first concert >.< but it reminds me about that fact that i cant go for SMtown Sad smile reason 1: exams in 3 days time. reason 2: no $$. what a sad life i have.



I got my wish NOW !!! flying off on the last day of MAGC at Midnight and going to spent 7 days there ((: my first time seeing snow ((: EXCITED !!!

1st post in a long time…

and it had to ben an EMO post. well this is the best place to pour out my thoughts, since i don’t feel like telling anyone and they don’t read my blog (plus point!!)


firstly I have no idea when but i start to realise that I stopped being pro-active and willing to help others to do small errands. I feel like I am dragging my feet every time, but this is exactly what I didn’t want myself to become like. i need to change this habit, but i think first i need to straighten out my thoughts.


this issue has been troubling me and after that day, it got me thinking even more about whether i still want to run. i suddenly feel that all i want to do is help the clubs and improve relationship which is what a LD does. vision … remain the same as this year.. i just can’t seem to be able to put it into words. even if i had prepared much more for the interview, i would still say the same way. i guess persuasion is a problem for me. honestly what else do we do then ensuring that their events run relatively smoothly, help them source for funds if possible, ensure they do not cross the guidelines, encourage collaborative and cluster event. in essence, ensure the club’s sustainability and operations adn ensure cohesiveness amongst the clubs in the cluster, which will slowly work to the cohesiveness amongst all the clubs in SICS.

they also mentioned about commitment and i don’t blame them for saying that i over-commit and may want to consider my commit level in other activities. but i don’t want to let go of my personal involvement in some club activities and iConserve. i mean for me it depends on the working relationship i have in the upcoming committees, and i am likely to want to be actively involved. if taking up a top5 role means forgoing all this commitment…

i would choose to drop the top 5 role, even a co-opt role, and continue my involvement in all the other activities. coz sticking with one is too mundane and i know that i can multi-task, i just don’t know how to convince people.


but i feel bad if i quit now. leaving the clubs with 5 choices is perfectly fine to me. but i feel that i will be letting down the people who encouraged me to run for the next exco. maybe my mum was right. i shouldn’t have run for it in the first place.


now i really wish i have a day off from everything. thankfully gwen booked mi for a full day.