Actually i really have no idea. i just feel like everything is so overwhelming and i want to drop all of it. every single thing. the funny thing is that i feel bad for doing it and hence i still decide not to let go. reputation i guess.
I became so tired of all this. maintaining everyone’s relationship, putting up a nice front to the rest and joining all the social events. Am i starting to become an introvert? i really like alone time. the only way i can do that now is to go home early and sit in my room. doing nothing but watch movies and dramas.
If i don’t have this stupid consciences thingy, i think i would be able to just ignore all appointments without guilt.